it's only when we lost or almost lose something dear to us that we'd realised its importance

it was only when i felt that i've really pissed him off that i realised his importance to me...
never will i know that it will have such an impact on me de whole morning...even lokey buddy could tell something is wrong...- ya la i spilled my drink all over my table and laptop while talking abt it...=___=

putting my clumsiness aside, that was when i realised, how afraid i actually was to lose what i have.....

forgive me for losing my patience...i was juz afraid to lose u....

de importance of feeling secure

i think it's vital to everyone especially for gers...
nobody likes to lead a life feeling insecure most of the time, having to worry about this and that..we already have enough worries in life.

i hate to be feeling like this, but i can't help it at times...i was so very afraid...so very afraid to go through the same thing or to go through something even worse.

i'm very uncomfortable with the current situation, things have to change......

Xmas Evening @ Bro's

being de usual nothing else to do...spent my xmas evening at bro's place together with mama n the in-laws family...

sumptuous spread prepared mainly by bro n da-sao as well as her 3 sistas...

we're healthy, that's not champagne, it's sparkling juice! cos there's a pregnant lady ard..kekez

bro's de only guy...lolx..

nxt year there'll be a new addition, my baby nephew!

gave mama a pre bday celebration by surprising her w de brownie as a cake...
it's so conincidental we're all wearing grey...(refering to us de younger ones..lolx)
and that's that for a simple xmas.....

xmas

a simple one..nothing special, no special someone nothing...sometimes i'd wonder wats de diff...

nevertheless, here's de gifts prepared for some of my lovely colleagues, yes, canon has got a STRONG Xmas culture!!

de bears aint' normal bears, there were their photos printed on de t shirts, mainly for my team!

some of de pressies i've received in office..

(psst u can see my boss head on top..sitting nxt to de boss = SWAY)

some of de gifts brought home, some other gifts ain't in this photo...
but i've received a very lovely Guess bracelet from my mamee ronson! thank u mamee! love ur pressie...and STOP buying branded stuff for ur ah-ger, u're spoiling me!!

as a yearly practice. we have a xmas celebration with our department, this year it was at Kbox..

Xmas eve: to Lunar, haven been there for 2 mths..gosh..i felt so welcomed..lolx..


HUAT AR!!!!!

Xmas day - a simple afternoon was enuff...

someone took me out for a yummilicious herbal chicken soup! meant to go there for blk chicken soup...tonics after my day op..but their blk chicken ain't ready..so took de white chicken instead, hopefully it works de same..

and a relaxing afternoon at starbucks east coast...

Thanks for de xmas lunch....sometimes i''d forgotten tt i still need de tonics man...

alot of things happened recently...i'm not gona go into details but well, de good thing is, all is over..

there was so much to go thru during that very short period, lots of emotional changes, my mood & temperaments changed at such a speed none has seen before. ( n u guyz used to think mine was bad enuff..=p)

like i say, no one will truly understand how u feel unless one has went through the exact same situation, lucky me, i'd a very lucky someone who fully understand and stood by me thru out...thanks gal..love u so much...

to those i've neglected unintentionally, sorry juz feel like hibernating in my own world and i can't really be out enjoying dinner, coffee etc like before during that time..

but now, all is well again...do feel free to ask me out again...ahahaha...