Cherish the PPL who meant to U.....

I've been Sleeping alot..but I'm still tired..been dreaming alot... Bad dreams i meant...i'd wake in the middle of the night somehow...in my dreams..i'm always scolding and shouting at ppl...i rarely do that in real life ( i mean now lah...)..so i do it in my dreams instead..
i dreamnt of similar Scenarios again and again...

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I'm thinking of Anson again. Whenever I'm feeling low, i'd start to think alot..
then eventually, I'll think of him...

It's been years..but i do miss him...
I miss the warmth from his hands I've once held...
I miss the warmth from his cheeks I've once planted a kiss on...
I miss the jokes that came from his bubbly personality...
I miss his tolerance from all the nonsense and tantrums...
I miss the way he snatched the cigarette away from me...
I miss the way he laughed...(he have this funny laughter...)
I miss the bo liaoz chats we used to have...
I miss all the fun we had together...
I really miss the Xmas all of us had together...that particular Xmas...the only photo i'm left with...

But..the last time i saw him.. I can no longer see these coming from him anymore...he looks so cold...there's no more warmth coming from him...he was stiff and cold in the coffin..

The Last time I really Broke down and cried my eyes out was right in front of His Coffin.
I can't bring myself to look at his lifeless body..no..I want to remember him as the lively person i once knew.....

I'm sorry i never believed u on something u'd said..till the Day i Saw ur Uncle on the day of ur funeral..then i realised that you did not lie to me....but i guess it's too late...

That's a problem with most of us..we don't cherish what we have till we lose them. Then we'll start to think of it and regret...
I told myself to cherish whatever i have and to treasure the people around me. but how many times did i really do it?

The other time JY commented that she's never seen me cry before. (though she's recently hear me cry....i bet she felt damn honoured...)
No..i seldom shed tears of sadness...After shedding so much tears in front of his coffin. I told myself...the tears of sadness will not drop that easily anymore....